Who Am I?

Remember the story about the blind men, each groping a different part of an elephant (ahem), and giving a different interpretation to what an elephant is?

So I'm wondering to what extent this applies to us, living in a society full of "blind" observers.

Every action of ours is observed and interpreted by others. Even the act of living a life of "No Mind" (see earlier posts) will be observed and interpreted by those in the vicinity. Ironic, given that we hardly give our own actions much thought. At least, I don't.

So, I'm giving my actions some consideration now, and I wonder if those around me consider me arrogant.

Like today, for example, I was really excited to have received my two test results back (law exam results on Thursday... gulp), and given that my goal over the coming years is to be among the top in class, if not the region, I was asking those I have observed to be more intelligent than I for their results. Only to find that my scores were higher than theirs.

With hindsight, this action of mine could have been interpreted as trying to "show-off" my results... and the action of posting this thought on the web, a confirmation of my arrogance, my wish to make known my superior intellect, etc...

But geez, I swear, I'm just a normal (ex) graduate, trying to make life better for myself, and to "atone" for my dismal university results. I'm also being paid to study this time, and I see no reason not to.

Ah well, such is life. Montaigne was right: we dare not or can not make those around us understand us, so we write about ourselves, and hope that somewhere out there, a reader does.